thisfunnyworld

So this is the world of blogging, I must say that I thought it might be more exciting than reading a good book, or maybe enjoying a nice cold beverage. The more I think about it, I would rather have that ice cold beverage with a little kick in it than be sitting here wasting precious time in front of my computer…. Then again there are things that are swarming through my head and the only relief is to probably get it all out for the rest of the world to read. Where to start is always the hardest thing to do with a journal, so I guess you just got to jump in and start with today.

Well today is a crazy day I must say. Before I give any background on myself and the crazy world I live in, Ill just start with todays happenings. First off, its my anniversary today. Most would say this is a great day, but you have to understand where Im at in this relationship, and more importantly where my wife is at in this relationship. Im sitting in from of my PC setting up my first blog. My wife is out by herself (alone time)and thinking about our relationship, Im sure, accompanied by her dog that she got 6 months ago. She is visiting her grandmother(75+y/o) who is in an nursing home in Bavaria, now this is about 300 miles away from where I am. I think her grandma might have alzheimers, based on the phone call I received last night. Her grandma called the house and asked for her granddaughter(my wife). Well most would think hmmm is my wife not really visiting her grandmother as she said for the weekend, and that maybe she used her grandma visit as an excuse to get away for the weekend. Maybe Im naive, but Ill vote that her grandmother has alzheimers. And Ill give my wife the benefit of the doubt, as I believe most relationships have to have some trust in order to survive in todays world, right.
Now, its thinking time, and the topic is what to do for my wife, and our rocky relationship on our 6th Anniversay. Answer: Roses and a night out!!(If she comes home today) I know it doesnt sound like a long time, but we did start going out about 13 years ago, go figure it took 7 years to decide if she was the one, now at the stage Im at, I might have elected to take another 7 to figure out if this is truly the right choice. But to be fair to her, maybe she needed another 7 years on her behalf to know if I was the right man for her. So how did I get here, no….how did we get here. I think the answer is in the question I just posed, I do seem to use a lot of “I”, “me” in this relationship. I know Im a kid at heart, and need to still do a lot of growing up but isnt keeping a relationship young what makes it work…Trust me, its not.
Where is this relationship going and what got it here is what I need to figure out. It just might be that I wont have a choice in where its going, but I sure did have choices of how it got here. So I will blog about my mistakes, or choices that got me (us) here later for those that would like to know.

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